ive been a bitch of late.

and i guess it showed.

taking things for granted and not realising it.

typical and cliche, but i guess this time round, ive fallen into the trap.

oh god,

for the last 10 mins, ive been typing and deleting whatever ive wrote,

and i got stuck in every sentence that i wanted to say.

i just cant seem to write whats on my mind right now

god is fair enough,

and i believe my hands are full with whatever he had given to me in life

i could never ask for more.

never.

unconvincing it may sound, but i should really be thankful

and appreciate what's right in front of my eyes,

before they are taken away from me.

some things are never forever

ive got my four corners covered.

and what more do i need?

this dissatisfaction in me is something im not proud of.

i kept asking myself what more do i want? what more do i need?

to think that ive been pointing fingers at people blaming them

as to why i feel incomplete,

when the crux of the problem lies in me.

im practically ashamed of myself.

i guess i really should change.

before what used to be there and right in front of me,

turn their head against me

and when that day ever comes,

ill only have myself to blame

i may not be the happiest girl on earth, but im definitely the luckiest

so please, asmida, wake up.